Sunday, November 28, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Ok, today, was not the greatest day. I woke up with my jaw half locked and a sore throat. Exhausted, aggravated, and discouraged, having my friend bring up another problem was enough to make me want to scream.
"I quit." I replied to her. "I don't know what's going on, and I am just DONE." I wonder what God was thinking at that point, because to me, it seemed like He had no idea of how annoyed I was becoming. This last week has been a roller coaster ride. God had brought up some really big issues that I needed to deal with. I knew that I didn't have a lot of room for error, but I didn't know that God had lined up a week of tests for me. It's felt like everyday brings a new problem that is getting between God and me. I've had to play snow plow and push those things out of the way and I was officially dead.
As I vented my frustration and the reasons behind it to my friend, an idea began to form in my mind. I had tried to be superman, and realized that I wasn't.
How many of you have ever felt this way? You try and you try and YOU TRY. But no matter what you do, you never seem to win. There is a reason you feel this way. It's because without God, you aren't winning. In fact, you are losing. We are not capable of being God. Not even close. As teens, we seem to believe that we have the only real answers to our questions. We think that our parents don't (or won't) understand us, our elders are unable to see things from our perspective and anyone old enough to try to be a mentor doesn't really have our best interests at heart. So, we go to ourselves, our little group of peers. Alright guys, whether this group consists of good Christian friends, people who don't really care about God, or whoever, these people are dangerous to keep as your counsel. As teens, our brains are not fully developed. Literally, until you are 25, the part of your brain that deals with having good judgement is NOT EVEN DEVELOPED. We should not be looking to each other for guidance. We should be looking to God, and those He has placed in our lives to help us. And that's what I had to realize today. I had extended every fiber of my being to fix myself, and ended up drained. Basically my lesson from today could be summed up in a quote from an old play called High Tops, "We don't have to clean up ourselves to go to God, that's His job."
And y'all, I understand that is hard to do sometimes. We don't like the idea of having our lives in someone else's hands. But in the end, the safest place to be, is in God. And when we give our problems to Him, it's a beautiful thing. We can feel free to address the issues in ourselves because we know God is there to help us. We can take risks and do things that we never though possible when God calls us to them. So let God take the wheel of your life and see where He steers you. You never know what can happen with a little faith. :)
Sincerely praying for you all,
P.S. Here is a poem that I wrote during another time of learning to trust, thought you all might like it, :) Praise God for His mercy right?
Am I allowed to quit now?
Am I allowed to back out?
Am I allowed to stand down?
and get away
My life is a crazy mess
I feel like such a wreck
I need to take a sec
ad get away!
Why is life like this?
A nutty insane asylum
where we're all running in the thick
I know I'm here
For a reason and not just in a random fray
I just need to kick this fear
and get away
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
What, then, do we learn about God when we first meet Him in Scripture? Does God have a first name?
Perhaps not. But He does have a name that was used first. The very first time you and I meet God in the pages of the Bible, we are introduced to Him by name. And His name, in the Hebrew language, is Elohim.
[Elohim] created the heavens and the earth.
But what is that to us? How can the name Elohim serve as a strong tower to us? How can we hide in its depths from the savage storms that sweep into our lives? How does learning this "first name" of God bring us the kind of security and comfort and hope our hearts long for?
Learning who God is by name is the answer to every situation in life. When we know His names, we begin to grapple with His power, His purpose, and His incomparable love.
What does it mean, then, for you and me to encounter Elohim in that first sentence of our Bibles? El means "mighty" or "strong" and is used for any reference to gods, including Almighty God. The him ending of Elohim is very significant, for it is a plural ending in the Hebrew that indicates more than one. Genesis 1:1 could accurately be translated, "In the beginning Gods created the heavens and the earth." More than one God? No.
"The LORD [Jehovah] is our God [Elohim], the LORD is one!" (Deuteronomy 6:4). God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit- the blessed Trinity- created the heavens and the earth. One is essence, in character, yet three persons united as one. As you read various scriptures, you can see references to the different persons of the Godhead participating in the word of creation.
In Genesis 1:2-3 we read:
Then God said, "Let there be light"; and there was light.
Each person of the triune Godhead had a part in creation. And it was no different when God scooped up the soil of His new world to form the first man. Genesis 1:26 tells us, "Then God [Elohim] said, 'Let Us make man in Our image.'" The "Our" has to refer to more than one! God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit were involved in creation. Your creation.
Don't skip past that thought. Go back, read it again, and take a moment to think about it.
God is your creator.
You exist because of God.
You are the unique and distinctive handiwork of Elohim.
Yes, He created the heavens and the earth. He formed the swirling galaxies and the blazing stars and the orbiting planets, and all the life that swarms across the face of our world or swims in the great seas. But He also formed you. Specifically. Individually. Thoughtfully. Carefully. Precisely the way you are.
-if you've ever struggled with your self image...
-if you've ever wept over your family of origin...
-if you've ever bitterly resented who your mother was, or who your father was...
-if you've ever agonized over your reflection in the mirror, or with your physical limitations... the name of Elohim is your strong tower and unshakable refuge. When you learn to boast in your Elohim, no matter what, life will change!
To be continued...
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
You should know the drill.
Grab your Bible. Bring up a fresh tab on your computer.
Check the verse.
In your hands is something very special. No-I am not referring to the laptop or iphone ;) The verse- look at it like a coveted prize or reward. You normally don’t have to win a prize-it just randomly is dropped in your lap when you least expect it, or don’t dare hope you could have it, or can’t imagine deserving it. Its like that. Face it- you don’t deserve the contents of that verse. Neither do I.
So….we don’t deserve it, we don’t expect it, and you- be real here- you honestly can’t fathom it right now. This verse is an invite. And its Christ’s personalized invite to each of us-His Followers! You- yeah, you there! YOU: are so loved! You are a treasure trove of His gifting. You are chosen and set apart, and designed to glorify Christ through fulfilling your calling! Don’t allow the Enemy to bruise your talents with his lies. Don’t let him reap your reward-or sneak away that invite. ‘Cause-I’m telling ya: he sure will try. YOU are irreplaceable to Christ. Don’t underestimate yourself. And look at this invite He’s just laid in your lap!
Face up- Its time to get real. Try to soak that verse in: You are entitled to come FEARELESSLY, BOLDLY, CONFIDENTLY to the very THRONE of GOD and ask for mercy and grace. And your assured of receiving them in your exact time of need. That is something powerful. I don’t know about you: but that is hardcore-and should rock the rest of your day. I’m trying not to sound like some sales person-I am not selling this: I was just so thrilled when I took in the enormity of this verse: I had to share it with you.
So now I challenge you to do the same. Take it in. Accept the invite. Share with a friend who needs to take it in too. You’ll be glad you did. And then…again….run with it.
Run with that promise.
Others will see, and ask, and also take it in.
Don’t ignore the invite.
Don’t doubt it.
Running with it too,
Blessings, (Jakarta, Indonesia)
Thursday, November 18, 2010
As I sat there on that cold balcony my spirits were at an all time low. Then, like a still small voice the answer I was seeking came to me. I had taken my eyes off love and put them on myself. With a little thought and help from the Holy Spirit, all the pieces fell into place. I had become snappish and angry, and unusually stressed. "Well DUH!!!" I wanted to shout. When you take your eyes off God, you also take your heart away from God too. Instead of living to please God, you live to fill your heart holes. What are heart holes? Spots in your heart that only God can fill. A lot of times we think people can fill these holes. So we grab them by the hair and attempt to stuff them into the mold. As you can imagine, all this results in is two tired people with broken hearts. And y'all I'm not just talking about dating relationships, or friendships with the opposite sex. I had and still have, several gal pals who I enjoy looking to as God. After all, they will listen to me, they're my friends. They will cry with me, give me advice and maybe even give me worship. Hey! They just might give me all I need. Catch the phrase that proves this equation false? "Maybe even give me worship."
In His word, the Lord says "worship the Lord your God and serve Him only." - Matthew 4:10. When we worship other people (aka giving them too much of our time, always trying to make them happy, thinking that their opinion is all that matters and they define us, etc.) we take from God what is rightfully His. He has done all the work here, He was the one who died on that cross, and more
importantly, HE CREATED US. Why do we spend so much time basking in the glow of the creature, instead of the creator? Here's another question to chew on. How many times do we fight for the spotlight?.................
I asked myself that question and was brought to the painful conclusion that I fought, a lot. But thankfully, along with that answer, came grace. God understands that I'm still learning, He's not expecting a perfect person. Just an apprentice, willing to learn. I needed to turn my eyes back on Love. Back on God. Back on the reason I became a Jesus Freak. I'll let you guys know what happens next. ;)
Having an eye adjustment,
P.S. Want to check out more about worship and what God says about it? Check out these verses. Pretty powerful.
Peace out y'all! :)
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Friday, November 12, 2010
Here is part of an entry from my journal, "Well, a day of fight, joy. :p Yea, I'm really happy and so excited about his revelation, but there is still the fight against myself."
The devil had brought me pretty low, I'm sure you know how it feels. You feel sapped of joy. You know it should be there, but......it's not. At this point I picked up my Bible, sure that I was going to read some scripture about how I should be addressing my faults and stop being so, so, whatever. Now y'all don't get me wrong here, we are here on this earth to draw closer to God, and that means getting out junk out. But sometimes we misjudge God and think that all He is ever going to say it "You're wrong." That is what I was thinking at this point. To my UTTER surprise however, I turned to Psalms 27:6, which says, "And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in His tabernacle sacrifices of joy. I will sing, yea I will sing praised unto the Lord."
Needless to say, I was shocked, my jaw dropped and tears sprang to my eyes. God did care. He realized that I was trying hard to become like Him and He valued that. He loved me and understood my pain and frustration. Here is another verse He gave me that night that I would love to share with you, especially if you are feeling this way right now. It's Lamentations 3:22, I encourage you to look it up in your own Bible and read it with me. Let the power of God's love for you and the message of deep concern for you embedded in this verse seep into your every fiber. Let it flow through you. Believe it. "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail." Wow, if Satan ever tells you that God doesn't care, throw this verse back in his face.
Y'all, you are powerful, and wonderful because of Jesus Christ, it's not a joke, it's the TRUTH. But it's only real, if you believe it. God can say it to you every day of your life, but if you don't believe it in your heart, it means nothing. It's just empty words on a page. But if you do believe it, if you do accept it, the love of Christ can be the most powerful weapon you could ever wield against the enemy. His hosts tremble at the very sight of it, and Satan himself will one day be eliminated by it. The love of Christ ladies and gentlemen, can change you lives forever. God loves you, really truly, loves you.
I'de thought I'de show the rest of the journal entry to let you know how my night ended. "God is there though, and He will 'lift my head above my enemies. Then I will offer up sacrifices of joy! I will sing; yea I will sing praises unto the Lord!' I pray God gives my strength to go through this winter. I know You (God) have a purpose for me here in winter."
You too my friend have a purpose here in the winter your going through. God is good! Believe it people! Don't ever doubt that He loves you and always has your best interest in mind. I hope you've been encouraged. :)
God loves you!!!!!! Always praying for you all, :)
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
but we will boast in the name of the LORD, our God.
but safety is of the LORD.
I think it's because most of us don't really know our God. We don't understand His great power and might. We don't comprehend His fierce love and unspeakable tenderness. And because we don't know Him as we should, we can't boast in the name of our God.
What do I mean when I say, "Boast in the name of our God"? To boast in means to have confidence in, to trust in. To boast in God's name means to have confidence in His name. To know His name means to know Him. To boast in His name is to have a settled confidence in everything that He is!
In the day of trouble or need, we are to run to our God, to put the full weight of our trust in Him. That is why He says,
I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify me."
Then, when He shows you (and He will), tell Him that you will boast in that name!
With that kind of boasting, God is well pleased.
Go read it.
Com’n, right now- it doesn’t take that long people: just google it or bring it up on Bible Gateway or something. I just need you to read this verse for yourself.
Read it again. Soak it in- immerse yourself in its meaning, ask yourself questions about what it truly means…and what God wants it to mean to you personally. It meant something different for me-as it will for you!
The day I flipped to that particular scripture-I was having a rough day. Like: one of those, “cry-every-few-minutes” kind. I have those far and few between-but this was different. I needed the essence of that verse. I felt dry and cracked up inside-and all I wanted was to find some sort of acceptance or praise from somebody-but nothing was filling the gap. I needed Him.
Especially as teens: we focus WAY too much on grapeling with our own self esteem. We look to our friends, our parents, our teachers and pretty much anybody else but God. And there IS a point where we become so dry inside for a promise of love that we can’t take it anymore.
But in this verse, it not only is a promise of His love…Oh no, it goes beyond that. It is a “Blessing” to us…to not only experience that Love-but that others may come to know and desire that Love through watching us. THAT is powerful. Not only powerful-but world changing. This verse isn’t just some ‘encouragement for a sec’ guys. It’s a promise and a blessing. But you need to claim it for your own. So take that verse…In faith: accept it…rebuke the enemy for stealing it…receive the promise, and take it to heart…
Others watch and see… and will be astonished at the Love of Christ flowing through you. And they will ask. And know. And also receive.
And run with it too…
(Written here in Jakarta, Indonesia)
Monday, November 8, 2010
Where do you run in time of need?
Where do you run when the predators of trouble, worry, and fear pursue you?
Where do you hide when your past pursues you like a relentless wolf, seeking your destruction?
Where do you seek protection when the weasels of temptation, corruption, and evil threaten to overtake you?
Where do you turn when your energy is spent... when weakness saps you and you feel you cannot run away any longer?
Do you turn to your protector, the One who stands with arms open wide, waiting for you to come and huddle in the security of all He is?
the righteous runs into it and is safe.
But how, you ask, could His name defend me? In biblical times, a name represented a person's character. God's name represents His attributes, His nature. His name is a statement of who He is. And He has many names! Each reveals something of His power and love and purposes toward you.
The Father longs to have you know Him better, that you might "trust in the name of the LORD and rely" on your God (Isaiah 50:10).
Did you know that this was uppermost in the mind and heart of Jesus as He faced the Cross? Just before He went to Calvary, He prayed for His disciples- and looking down through the centuries, He prayed for you and me, too. His deep desire was that "they may know Thee, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom Thou hast sent" (John 17:3).
This was the burning goal of Paul's life and the cry of his heart, "That I may know Him" (Philippians 3:10).
Knowing your God means everything. Everything.
It's the difference between victory and defeat.
It's the difference between rest and constant turmoil.
It's the difference between an abundant, overflowing life and a life of barren emptiness.
It's the difference between deliverance and captivity.
It's the difference between finding a refuge and living as a fugitive.
It's the difference between life and death.
It's the difference between heaven and hell.
To be continued...
Friday, November 5, 2010
Lately, I’ve really been thinking about the meaning of life. Well, not so much the meaning of life, but who we are, and what we should be doing, in the short-, mid-, and long-term. The main question I have been pondering lately is this: What specifically separates humans from say, monkeys? Obviously, many people just say we are above them, because we can reason, we can think, we have the ability for cognitive reasoning, and so on. With new discoveries every day in the scientific world, the general accepted idea currently is that we (humans) are no better than monkeys, mice, rats, or even a lowly amoeba.
So the question is raised: If we, as Christians, are going to say that we aren’t evolved from primordial slime, what does separate us? What makes us so unique?
This is a new idea, and I am still not sure exactly how true this might be, but I think I might have the answer. I’ve really been thinking about this quite a bit, and there is a whole story behind it.
Last year, I wrote a book. The main character, a computer, has the dream of becoming a human. After a series of events, she eventually does. However, I reached a conundrum. What does separate a human from say, an android? Or in this case, she became a human, but was she a full human, with every single ability and talent as a human? Obviously, I want to put a Godly message in everything, so what is the difference between us and a really smart computer? Can a computer even be smart? What is our special, inherent ability?
I would say it is innovation. It is the ability to create, to think outside the box, to develop, to introduce. Beyond just innovation, I have also been wondering how we are to use our innovation. We have the ability to think outside the box, and if we want, even think the box out of existence! If you accept the fact that we have the ability to create new ideas, to think outside the box, what are we supposed to do with this? To what end should we be using our physical bodies, and our mental capacities?
To God’s Glory.
We are to do everything to the glory of God. Everything we do should be as unto the Lord. Whether we are taking the trash out in the rain, or cleaning the gutters, or cooking over a hot stove, or anything we do, we should be doing it as unto the Lord. Regardless of whether we like it or not, we should be doing it with all our heart, and to the fullest of our extents.
So, the next time you have an idea, think about how you might be able to use it to the fullest extents. In everything you do, do it to His glory, and remember, ideas are good! Every idea you have is a gift from God! So go out there and innovate the world!
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Recently my mom and I began working out together for fun/I-can't-breath-very-well-so-I-should-probably-workout-my-body. Even though I ice skate and do a couple other sports for pleasure I realized that I was waaaayyy out of shape. After the first day my body was screaming at me. Today after I finished working out God gave me a revelation.
Sometimes He pushes us to places we don't want to go. Whether that's a missions trip, a full-day 24/7 schedule, a break from friends, whatever. We don't like it and we usually let God know it, kind of like me and my trainer. But, also like my trainer, God doesn't stop when the going gets tough. He will often push us past the point we think we can go. Why does God do this? For one simple reason, He wants us to quit. Now don't loose me here, God wants you to give up trying on your own. He wants you to rely on Him, not on yourself. If your like me, you probably enter a hard time with a little (ok, a lot) of pride strapped to your back. You feel in control, and you like that feeling. It's easy to stay in that position. But as I said in my last post, God doesn't want us taking the blue pill, He wants us to step outside our "comfort" zone and take the red pill.
Now if this is all relating to you, that's not a bad thing. Just like working out, moving out of the easy lane is helpful and builds out bodies both physically and spiritually. Another thing, as you go through this time you are probably going to accumulate a lot of anger at God. GET THAT OUT. God understands what your going through. God doesn't get offended, He forgives you, and the WORST thing you can do is let that anger bottle up inside you. Give that anger to God. You can scream into a pillow, cry it out, work out (one friend of mine plays football to get it out), sing at the top of your lungs (my favorite way) or whatever other way God gives you that OBVIOUSLY doesn't involve hurting someone or yourself! NOT ALLOWED!!! God wants you to push though this last chance work out. Cause guys, it literally is our last chance. We are living in the end times. It's not a joke, it's the word of God. We need to be prepared to meet Him when He comes! So trust God through this hard time, God is trying to be your trainer and help you. He only does it because He loves you. You can make it, God says you can and I believe you can.
Well, back to the gym, :) Blessings and prayers go with you all!
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Its easy to take compliments and not think about it. but honestly, nothing we have comes from us or anything we have done. in Ephesians 2:9-10 it ways "Not of works, lest anyone should boast. For we are His workmanship, created for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them."
Now the "not of good works, lest anyone should boast." part is saying that we have don't nothing to acquire anything we have, whether it is looks, talents, qualities, or a position you are in, it all comes from God.
My mom told me a story once about her friend from when she was younger. she met her friend again a couple months ago and her friend was telling/bragging about how she had started as an intern in this company and worked herself up to where she was the co-manager or something. now that is pretty impressive but she was telling it like she had done it all on her own, but quite simply, it was only by God's grace that she was where she was.
The last part of the verse says "which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them." when God created us he gave us each a unique group of talents with a special purpose in mind. he gave them to us so we could use them for His glory, for His righteousness, but unfortunately that is not always what happens.
So in conclusion, its easy to get all cocky about ourselves but always remember that its all from God. keep asking God to help you use them for His glory. there is my rather long piece of wisdom for the day...
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
"There is no spoon."
"There is no spoon?"
"Then you'll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself."
- The Matrix
I recently had the distinct pleasure of watching the incredible movie The Matrix. Now, I am able to understand and love science, so this movie blew me away. However, God brought along with it a really interesting idea.
Before I watched the movie, my dad asked me the famous question, "will you take the red pill or the blue pill?" Sometimes we put so much trust and energy into this world, our "Matrix". We put on masks, we play parts, we make people happy (teachers, parents, friends, siblings) and at some point (only you know when ;)) you go to sleep only to wake up the next day to do it again. It's hard to break this pattern, but taking the red pill is exactly what God calls us to do. His word says that we are not of this world, we were created to serve Him in His kingdom.
Sometimes God has to tear us out of our own little world in order to see what is really important.
My friends are probably the most important thing in my life besides my faith. Sadly though, I still struggle with putting God first. At one point in my life I had a friendship that consumed my entire life. This girl was everything I wanted to be, pretty, admired, talented, and confident. I swiftly let go of God and set this friend on top of the throne of my heart. Eventually God broke up our friendship and my 12 year old heart was devastated. I was just feeling cool, feeling worth loving and now it had all collapsed. Yet through all the pain, God led me to the place where He was all that matters, and all I wanted was Him.
Maybe your going through a time like this, you feel like quitting and don't understand what God is doing. Keep holding on. God will come. He loves you and He is strongest when we are weakest. "Be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might," Eph 6:10. Even if you don't understand, keep seeking God. This rough patch might just be God's way of saying I love you.
Here is a song I wrote once that I felt I should share, hope you find God in it,
I told You that rain was all I could see
You told me that You were right in front of me
I told You I was crying myself to sleep
You said to let go and accept Your peace
You taught me to cling to You
and I learned to love this truth
That even when the mountains are falling down on me, you're still good,
Even when the dark is creeping into my soul, you're still there,
And even when I don't understand why you do the things you do, you're still God and I'm still here………..
in Your arms.
You say to start here and trust that you know best
I say that this is crazy and I'm just one big mess
You say to jump and believe Your word
You're breaking my heart but somehow I'll learn
That even when the mountains are falling down on me, You're still good,
Even when the dark is creeping into my soul, You're still there,
And even when I don't understand why You do the things You do, You're still God
and I'm still here……..
in Your arms
In Your arms the rain is outside my window
In Your arms I can see rainbows in the distance
And even though I don't understand why You do the things You do
You're still God and I'm still here
And even when the mountains are falling down on me, You're still good,
Even when the dark is creeping into my soul, you're still there,
And even when I don't understand why You do the things You do, You're still God
and I'm still here……..
and I'm still here………
In Your arms
Ok, here are some random thoughts I've been thinking about.... This is kinda the stage I'm at right now, so I could really use prayer in what I'm sharing... :)
Life can be mundane, so we think. We sometimes compare our lives to those around us those who you would think are "enjoying life" right now... with worldly things that only bring enjoyment for the present.
Who says that we can't enjoy life??.... I read once that an observer of the Christian faith said "You Christians seem to have a religion that makes you miserable. You are like a man with a headache. He does not want to get rid of his head, but it hurts to keep him to keep it. You cannot expect outsiders to seek very earnestly for anything so uncomfortable." This really made me think... sometimes in my Christian walk I struggle so much between what I know I should do, and what I want to do.... it makes me very unhappy. It doesn't have to be this way!
But I serve a God who is faithful who cannot and will not let me go! He is every moment teaching me to grow in His grace. I am learning that I must live a life of continual surrender... until everything, in my physical and spiritual life is His. If I am a lump of clay given to the potter, how else can the potter work with the clay unless it stops asking questions, arguing, and struggling against the will of the potter? To let him work in my life I must have complete trust and faith in Him.
We, in Christ are the only ones who can enjoy life to the fullest! You and I were made to live life to the utmost it could be, What could bring more fullfillment than having a reason to live.
Life is a vapor, enjoy it to the fullest! We have this moment, not the next, God gave us today, but only He knows what tomorrow holds for us.
How to enjoy life (the real way)
- Purpose to love and seek God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength (Mark 12.30, Luke10.27, Matt. 6.33)
- Surrender COMPLETELY! Trust and have faith in Him, for the present and the future.
- We were made in the image of God to glorify Him, Build everything around God make Him the reason why you live
Live for His glory! and Remember He Loves you!